"Porcelain Heart" by Barlow Girl
"What Hurts the Most" by Cascada
"Un-break My Heart" by Toni Braxton
"Moving On" by TimBeTold
"White Flag" by Dido

I wish I never would have needed this list.

This evening I called my mom because I thought there was a discrepancy in SSN's for my college records and the number I had memorized.
Turns out, I was wrong all along!  I'm not sure how long it's been like this, but through working at Shop Rite, volunteering at a state agency, and my internship applications... just... wow.

So tomorrow is going to be another hectic day, I can tell.  I'm like "I can't wait for some new drama/situation to arise!  Wonder what it's going to be?"

I mean there's a panel on the economy as part of Career Week that I want to attend, and it's at noon, but I have a group meeting during that time.  There's Japanese Club, Chinese Culture Club (maybe), and another group meeting for another class(!!!), before AAA!

I'm not too optimistic right now, either, regarding the outcomes of several situations I'm going through right now.  I need to think more positive ._.
Think happy thoughts!  Think positive!  Think happy thoughts!  Think positive! xD

This week is going to be a busy one, and some personal issues have been going on that put it off to a sorta-bad start.

Tuesday's schedule is going to be a little busy... Resume Critiques from 6-8, a Housing Interest Session (the last one!) at 7, and E-comm at 9.
Pales in comparison to Friday... class, Career Fair, exam, then ECAASU.  Doesn't look so bad laid out at the moment, but come Friday I'll have a lot of reasons to want Spring Break.

NYC, Mitsuwa, SLEEP!... ahhh, I kinda want it already.

Last week I found out that one of the two acts that I chose to stay in for Mystique, Soran Bushi, was dropped.  No biggie, I thought, I'll just rejoin the ax dance!  Today, though, I found out about this:

Craftzine.com blog: CRAFT: Volume 10 is our last issue in print

I follow their online blog very closely, and wanted to get a print subscription to CRAFT: once I find a job and get an income.  I love print magazines, especially on the nights I commute from college to home.  The only thing that stopped me from buying a copy was the price, which is understandable considering it only comes out quarterly, but was still higher-end compared to other magazines.

After finding out that knit1 would only be available in LYS, not through mail subscriptions, last semester, this came as another major swing of disappointments this month.

Let's start the day with four fire drill tests.  Oh wait, no, let's start the day with a dream I had where my parents were telling me to drop out of college!

Yeah then came the alarm tests which woke me up on four separate occasions.

And this freezing cold...

And this real fire drill in the evening, when I had finally gotten back to my room and was a little "bleargh" because of personal troubles regarding a certain relationship...

Fire drill, which came after finding out that one of the acts I was looking forward to participating in for Mystique this spring was dropped...

And after finding warmth in NJCF, getting the realization slapped in my face that though he is my boyfriend, he still has a life.  I know I can't expect things to be differently.  So WHY CAN'T I ACCEPT THEM?!!??!?!?!?!


Oh and I have no future.  The end.

The Puppy Bowl may seem boring, mundane, and plotless to others, but the cuteness factor wins in my book.  The Kitty Half Time Show is actually my favorite part.

I'm probably biased, though, cuz I'm not much of a sports fan.  It was nice watching the Giants win last year, but other than that, I'm not really involved.

Today my professor started out the Operations Management class with a quiz.
It detailed stuff about countries, such as which one pays the most, which one has the most Internet addresses per capita, which one has the best Internet infrastructure, etc.; stuff about companies (which two [from a list] originated in the USA), etc.; and questions about industries (which one is the most competitive?).  The last question did not have an answer from the list, and it was "Which internationally celebrated annual event do the most people travel for?"

And everyone listed New Year, Valentine's Day, other stuff/etc.
I guessed Chinese New Year, and was right!!!

But I'm pretty sure the professor didn't make the connection...

Anyway Xing Nian Quai Le!

PostSecret

The creator, Frank Warren, came and spoke to us at TCNJ today (technically last night)!  It wasn't really something I was excited or looking forward to, and I initially went just cuz I hoped it would be a good night.
And a good night it was!  The speech was a unique style of motivational talk.  It had its funny moments, serious moments, WTF moments, and more!

And as much as I'm trying to cut back on my spending, I bought one of his books.

So after a night of agonizing over how much the spring semester is going to suck and how my priorities are out of order, and after dropping a lot of Mystique acts and other Pan-Asian responsibilities/duties, I review my Unofficial Transcript from last semester, and spy a little line under "Good Standing" that says...

"DEAN'S LIST"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:D Yay OMGWTFBBQ*spazfoam*

Turns out I just made it with a 3.5 semester GPA.

This is a good indicator that I know how much more emphasis I need to place on my studies, and how the spring semester is bound to be another challenge for me (two D+'s in the past two spring semesters really killed my overall GPA).


But still...
Never did I expect...
Despite wanting to get all A's...
Making Dean's List!

Okay, so it isn't really snowing now, but the snow left from last week is still there, so it's still a "white Christmas," right??

Anyway,
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!

I made spaghetti and meatballs for my family's dinner tonight!
I actually made turkey meatballs - I think this is the first time I've handled raw meat.

...
Next time I'll try beef.

wizardofkitty and I just died and went to knitter heaven.

Okay, so what if it was only a yarn boutique (with a quilting fabric shop next door)...
We ogled over the yarn selection they had there- I mean merino AND cashmere yarn??!?!?
This totally made my day.  (why were we putting off a visit to this place again? ;)

Anyway, for those around the Trenton area, it's called The Wooly Lamb and is located at:
Tree Farm Village
7 Tree Farm Road
Pennington, NJ 08534

(P.S. Did I mention the fabric store next door?  Ahh... the colors, the groupings of colors... AMY BUTLER FABRICS?! :D )

TAT

So I'm back, and my finals situation works out so that there's a full week (and then some) between the last day of classes and my first final held during finals session.

This week should hopefully be a breeze.

Thus meaning the only source of stress in my life should be the fact that I left my semiformal outfit at home and now am being berated for it due to poor organization and sitting in front of the computer all the time?

canker sores suck >_<
eating hurts.
talking hurts.

So instead of business casual, Networking Night attire is business professional, meaning I'm screwed since the only element I'm missing is a freaking suit jacket.  Or a whole suit, if I can't find a jacket that matches the random pair of dress pants I wanted to wear.
So basically, I'm not going because I can't dress the part because I can't afford a suit (and I refuse to spend more of my parents' money) because I don't have a job... it was worded better on Facebook.

So now I'm fed up with society and how overly formal things have to be. I mean I understand one would want to dress the part / dress to impress, but having "business casual" on the ticket and then telling me that it's "business professional"... I am not paying $10 to attend an event underdressed.  And if this is what the rest of my life is going to look like, I may as well not go into business (but it's too late to change my major yet again?).  Hm, maybe I'll push my boyfriend to go into ministry like he was considering.  Hi boyfriend; I know you're reading this.

So my friend is buying the ticket off of me, thus bringing the amount of money spent down to the $16.98 for the portfolio, which should come in handy in future career fairs, etc.


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Currently in need/want of: lotion, comfort food, and crack anime

It all started with( ... )

Networking Night

Ticket: $10
Portfolio: $16.98

Total: $26.98 for one night, missing three meetings in the process.
And no guarantee of an internship.

"You know you're really tired.... when you try to push the other way in a revolving door!"
~wizardofkitty

Hm, even though I find happiness in Wednesdays, today was different.
Maybe it was the weather, maybe it was the season, maybe it was some other circumstance...
And I'm sure I got on people's nerves (sorry people! you know who you are) as lonely as I felt.

So career fair was on Friday, and I thought I did well making impressions, but I haven't gotten any calls or responses to my e-mails... which makes me sad and worried, until I remember that I wasn't supposed to expect any internship offers this semester until my grades and my GPA pick up.  I mean at least three of my friends have offers and responses, and once again I worry about whether I'll get an internship at all at any point before graduating in one and a half years.  And after graduation, where will I end up?  Where will my boyfriend end up?  He's graduating next spring!  Where will we be after four years?  After 10?  For the rest of our lives?!  Is this indicative of my lack of spiritual growth?

Bleh, I don't like gloomy weather.

It's gotta be really sad when your professor asks everyone to dress up for Halloween a couple of days early (because that's when class is held), and no one does BUT THE PROFESSOR.  It's like "seriously, the professor has more spirit than the entire class?!"
I really wanted to dress up, but my costume isn't even ready, and even if it were, not that many would understand it nor would I have been able to wear it because of this evening!

This evening was opening ceremonies for Experience Asia month.  It went well, and as usual we got a ton of people and ran out of food despite ordering increasing amounts every year.  Since this is one of the first major events AAA is putting on, it seemed pretty exhausting after the event was over.

So yeah, after Friday, during which hopefully my costume group will have had taken photos of, I'm thinking of e-mailing them to my professor to maybe cheer him up.  He was so disappointed...
(BTW he was Batman.  Should've taken photos.)

After reading this post by Lauren, I've felt a little... inspired to do something similar.  To create a meme or quiz, of sorts.  Basically, rather than presenting 10 favorite items and explaining why they were chosen, choose 10 of your current favorite websites and explain why you like them.  Social networking sites like Facebook and Myspace are banned just because they are already so very popular, and millions of people use them.  Blogs are okay, but please don't present just 10 of your favorite blogs- your list should include a mixture of blogs and other sites you enjoy, as well.  Oh, and if you run/own/moderate a certain site, please don't post it.  This isn't intended to be a place for self-promotion (hm, so maybe this isn't a meme).
I might add more rules as I see fit.  And if someone's already created something like this and "passed it on" (as I am about to do), then I apologize, but I did not intend to rip off your idea.  Lastly, if you choose to use this idea on your own blog and found mine as a source of inspiration, I ask that you link back to me (as I have linked to my inspiration) and let me know, so that I might be able to see this grow/see some of your favorite sites!

10 Sites I Like (in no particular order)( It gets a little lengthy. Click to read the full post. )